When forgiveness finds a way
A story of hope by Social Worker, R Van Rooyen
“I attended a court hearing at the Blue Downs Children’s Court to finalise the primary care placement of a child with her maternal grandmother.
The circumstances that led to this moment were heartbreaking. The child’s father had been incarcerated after being convicted of murdering her mother and was subsequently sentenced to 20 years in prison.
On that particular day, I appeared in court alongside the maternal grandmother, the child and the biological father. What I witnessed that day was something I will carry with me for a long time: true forgiveness, remorse and the possibility of healing, even in the midst of unimaginable pain.
As the grandmother, the child and I waited in the courtroom, there was uncertainty about what would happen when the father entered. When he eventually walked into the room, everything became quiet. Eyes were fixed on him. There was tension, anticipation and, of course, a great deal of emotion.
Then something unexpected happened.
He looked at the maternal grandmother, and the two embraced. He asked her for forgiveness and expressed his remorse.
She chose to forgive him.
The experience made me wonder whether we truly know that we have forgiven someone until we are confronted with them, or until we find ourselves in a situation that brings the hurt to the surface again. Forgiveness can sound simple in theory, but experiencing it in the presence of the person who caused such profound pain is something entirely different.
That day, I witnessed forgiveness. I witnessed a visible sense of relief, peace and, perhaps most importantly, humanity in the room.
I am in no way minimising the seriousness of the father’s actions or the devastating consequences of what happened. There is no justification for the loss this family experienced. Rather, what stayed with me was the grandmother’s response and the journey of forgiveness she chose to undertake.
Because forgiveness is not necessarily about what the other person deserves. Sometimes, forgiveness is about releasing yourself from the weight of carrying anger, resentment and pain.
In social work, we often meet people who carry deep hurt, anger and resentment into our offices. These emotions are understandable responses to the circumstances and trauma they have experienced. We cannot always change what has happened to a person, nor can we erase the pain they have endured.
But perhaps part of our role is to walk alongside people as they find ways to process that pain, make meaning of their experiences and, when they are ready, begin their own journey towards healing.”
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